New Year...New post!

When Barry is sick he always tells us he has a beaver in his tummy. He will then lay on the couch all day and demand to watch cartoons. Of course, his pillow and blanket have to come along.

Natalie loves her picture to be taken but always has the deer in the headlights look! Jake is just getting big!

Annie loves to play the guitar. Her favorite song is the Gotye song and she can now play the bass part on guitar.

Hallie is turning into such a drama girl. She loves to put on a show no matter what she is doing. She is always coming up with new videos to make and pictures to take. Again, Jake is just along for the ride.

Could there be a sweeter face than this? She is getting so big and starting to talk so much now. Half of what she says is just gibberish but it is so cute to listen to her carry on a conversation. She calls her self "nat nat". Love it!

Annie loves to bake. She helped me make sugar cookies for everyone to decorate and was really good at it too! She is such a good helper and is always the first to volunteer to hold Jake or play with the little ones.

I think more frosting was put in the mouth than on the cookies!

Such a happy little guy...I mean Big guy. He does not like to be called little and just beems from ear to ear when you tell him that he is a big boy. I love the twinkle in his eyes.

First family picture with all of us. Christmas Eve pajamas are the best.

It still amazes me that they all belong to me.

I know this picture is blurry but I absolutely love Tat tats face in this one. She is such a tender hearted little one and can pull that lip out in such a cute way. You would never guess she was such a bully too.

I am so excited for this new year. It is always fun to see what each year brings our family. Just to sum up 2012 for you of how totally awesome it was:

*GRADUATED Medical School
*Started Residency at an awesome program
*Spent time in Nauvoo with family
*Flew to St. George and spent time with all the cousins
*Signed a deal with Nephi, Utah for Tyler to start working there in 2015
*Welcomed sweet, little Jake to our family
 *Hallie got Baptized
*Barry started preschool
*Natalie got tubes put in her ears
*Annie started 1st grade and wowed everyone by being an amazing reader
*Hallie got her ears pierced
*Annie got her ears pierced
*Barry got potty trained
*Natalie graduated from crib to top bunkbed
*Jake had his first Christmas ever

Hopefully, this year brings more post! I am getting back to a normal routine and finding myself again. It is tough to adjust to a new little one in the winter time. But all is well and I am pulling through. I have started running again (Tyler got me a treadmill!!!!!) and I am feeling so much more back to my old self.

Buddy turns 4

I can't believe he is 4 already. And all of a sudden he decided to be big and act like a little boy rather than a toddler. He is loving life right now and truly is introducing us to how awesome boys are. There must be a wrestling ring in Heaven that all boys are trained at because Barry and all his little boy friends sure love to wrestle. He is becoming a dads boy for sure too. Whenever Tyler is home, Barry is climbing on him, wrestling him, or just hanging out with him. They love to go get root beer together at the gas station and he loves to ride in Dads car.

I have to admit that I am really missing him cuddling with me and wanting to be with me all the time but I am so enjoying watching the bond between them grow. Barry has a hard time showing affection of any kind. I have had to really work with him to get him to tell me that he loves me and to give me a hug. Anytime I kiss him on the cheek he immediatly wipes it off and laughs and he will never give a kiss in return. But the other day Tyler got home and Barry ran up to him and hugged him and than kissed him on the cheek....What?!? No way is that even close to far. Bond or no bond, Mom should always be the one getting the kisses.

He has the cutest little giggle and smile (above picture). He loves to be naked and yell out "naked bum" whenever he sees one (I have learned to lock the bathroom doors when I am in there now). He thinks it is hilarious to watch anyone fall down and, even more so, if he is the one to knock them down. Although, Natalie is challenging him now and can even pin him on the ground.

He has a peddle free bike and is so fast on it. He Loves all superheros and especially loves to be playing outside with his big sisters and neighbors. We love Barry so much and love watching him grow and learn new things everyday.

Jacob T. Warner

It is about time I posted about our new little boy. Jacob T. Warner was born on October 8th at 4:40 p.m. and weighed 7 lbs 12 oz. and 21 inches long. He has been a little angel baby for us and we are so smitten with him. The girls fight over who gets to hold him and Barry is just so excited to have a brother. When we walked in from coming home from the hospital he was jumping up and down and yelled out "can he walk yet?"
Surprisingly Natalie is the one have the hardest time with him. She is very sweet with him but has been even more attached to me and even meaner to her siblings. Each day gets better with her though and hopefully she will adjust quickly.

Our Angels

Grandma Borrowman and Aunt Kensi came out to help us and boy did we need them. They were angels taking care of me and all the kids. Plus, Kensi cut and colored my hair. A much needed thing right after having a baby and feeling all yucky. We can not express enough thanks to them and all they did for us. We sure love you guys and miss you a lot right now.  I love this picture of them. They are both so beautiful.
At Jakes 3 day appointment he weighed 7'4 and then at his 2 week he weighed in at 8'7...he is such a good eater. He sleeps pretty good but because of his love of eating he wakes up at 3 hours on the dot usually.

Jake at 1 week old...isn't he adorable

One proud brother

He definitely gets is far share of kisses

Grandma Borrowman and all 5 of my kids

Tat and Barry keeping an eye on Jake while he sleeps

Grandma finally won Barry over and he loved to sit on her lap

My beautiful mom...she was a lifesaver for us. We love you and miss you so much

Tat thinks it is her responsibility to swing him

Nobody can resist kissing him

Jake at 2 weeks old

And 3 weeks old today

update

As I sit here eating my 3rd cinnamon roll of the day, I figured I might as well update the blog and clue you in on what is going on with us.
 First off, our little Natalie turned 2. I can not believe that she is 2 already. I know I say this with everyone of them, but it really does seem like just yesterday we brought her home from the hospital. Let me tell you about this little girl:
- She is so much fun to have around.
- She is such a independent little girl but still loves to be with mom and dad non stop. Seriously, I can only leave her with a elect few or else she cries uncontrollably. She is still not going to nursery on her own unless I am in there with her. She even cries when dad takes her.
- She loves to play with dolls and absolutely loves sorting things. I gave her 2 bowls, a spoon, and some beads and she played for 2 hours just putting them back and forth into the bowls.
- She is a collector. She loves to put all her toys in one bucket or bag and carry them around. Rarely does she actually play with the toys.
- She loves to do hair. If I sit down on the floor, she takes off running to the bathroom for a brush.
- She sleeps in a bunk bed now with Barry and loves it. Although, it took her a week to get used to nap time in there.
- She RUNS everywhere and is into everything. She really is my busiest baby.
- She has the cutest little voice and is starting to talk so much. My favorite is when she says "Wwwhhaattt"
We absolutely love and adore you Natalie and feel so blessed to have you in our family.

Blowing out the candels

such a cutie...I love her blue eyes and wispy hair.

Hallie and Tat

Annie...she is looking so big lately.

Barry is still carrying that whistle around

 Some other news in our family is as of October 8th we will be welcoming our new little boy to our family. I go in for a c-section at 3:30 and I am so excited. I am excited to meet this little man. I am excited to kiss his face. I am excited to smell his breath (Tyler makes fun of me for this one but I think it is one of the best things about babies). I am excited to bring him home and to have our family complete. The kids are very excited too. Especially, Annie and Barry. Annie is such a little baby lover and can't wait to have him here to hold and take care of and Barry is just so excited to finally have a baby brother. I have been nesting like crazy. I am sure Tyler is tired of me telling him to move furniture and the kids are tired of me telling them to clean up there room while they are still playing in it. But hey, at least I am feeling ready to bring Jacob home. It has been quite the chore to fit 5 kids into 2 bedrooms but thanks to my organizational skills, I think we are going to do just great.

self portraits of the belly

can't even smile cause I am so focused on getting me in the picture

Ok, I am no good at self portraits so I turned it over to Annie

This is me at 38 weeks pregnant...one week to go

Did I mention that my mom and my sister, Kensi, are coming out on Sunday? They are, and this only adds to the joy I am feeling right now. I can't wait to see them.That is all for now. Hopefully we will get some good pictures of Jacob on here quick so you can all enjoy our excitement with us.

Why Mom?

Monday morning I had a doctors appointment. Since I knew it would be a long wait I got a friend to watch my kids for me. When Barry asked where I was going I told him I was going to have the doctor check on Jacob and make sure he was growing ok. He seemed pretty excited about it and was anxious for me to go.

I am now on my weekly appointments and have 3 weeks and 5 days left...but who is counting. Oh wait, I am and I am so excited to be done with this pregnancy. Good pregnancy, even seemed to go pretty quick, but my body is soooo done being pregnant. I want to go running... in a major way.

So, after I was done at the doc, I went back to get Barry and Tat. We hung out with my friend and her kids for a little bit and then headed home. On the way home this is how the conversation went:

Barry: Oh wait mom, did you check jacob today?
Me: Yep, he is growing good.
Barry: Well, I don't see him (looking around the van)
Me: Oh, well he is still in my tummy for another 4 weeks.
Barry: 4 WEEKS... Mom go back to the doctor and get jacob out.
Me: I can't bud, we have to wait for him to get big enough and strong enough to come out.
Barry: Mom, how BIG is Jacob going to be?
Me: just little, like Bel's baby sister.
Barry: What? (crying begins) I don't want Jacob anymore.

Poor little buddy, must have thought we were getting him a live in friend. Maybe it doesn't help that I told him he would get to share a bunk bed with Jacob one day... well, it's not a lie, he will get to share with him in like 3 years!!!!

Good times

Just a quick note for me (this is my journal after all!) to remember  how good times can be. It has been a hard couple of months and some days I have felt like I just couldn't do it anymore. This 5th baby coming has caused more stress than ever and I still get major anxiety just thinking about being in charge of one more sweet little person. Can I really do it?
Through much prayer and studying, I have come to realize how much the Lord knows me. How much he is aware of my every need. And, especially, how much he loves me. I feel confident that I will be a good mother of 5 and I know that I will have the ability to teach all of them what I need to and most of all, give them all the love that I need to give them.
Today, I feel that there is brightness at the end of the road and that I can do all things! Of course, I had to write down how I am feeling today because we all know that tomorrow brings new challenges and I wanted to be able to remember the good.
One of my new favorite sayings:

Fear not. Be of good cheer. 

Your Future is as bright as your Faith.

Thomas S. Monson

White Coat

We did this back in May after graduation but since I have been down and out, I never got around to putting them on. The story to this...... After a medical student graduates, they burn their white coat and get a longer white coat to show that they are now an official Doctor. Ryan Miller and Tyler went to school together and both did out rotations here in Warren. So it was only appropriate for them to burn their coats together. Of course, we had to enjoy smores along with them.

Ryan getting ready to burn the coat

Wondering if it will really burn

Final farewell to the student white coat

They had to show the school burning

Tyler's turn...I think he enjoyed this a little too much

starting to burn

See ya later. You brought us a lot of good growing times but we are not sorry to see you go